Thursday, September 1, 2011

I Dream a lot

Why Not? Jesus Shed his Blood so I could use His!


Dreams are interesting.

The other night I dreamt I went to Heaven and God was in a big tractor harvesting corn. The End.

Last night I had a longer dream... to premise this dream it was the first night trying to sleep with absolutely NO drugs of any kind in two months. I have been having panic attacks on a continual basis for nearly a week now and Adivan has been the last drug they had me on ..to help me get OFF the other ones. Even Adivan I didn't want to be on though so I have been trying to just stay calm when the attacks come...breathe through them..talk to myself..and yes I have been praying. When your breath feels threatened it truly does to me feel like an attack. Spiritual, Mental, Physical..you name it. I have always prayed in Jesus name when these happen. Along with saying to myself " You're o.k Tanya" out loud. It seems to work. I get tired of being a warrior though. Franky? I just want them to stop.

Part 1

So now back to my dream last night. It was based in the 50's to begin with. A girl and guy were in the water just flirting and having fun by a log. The girl was dunking her love interest and holding him under in a playful yet serious manner. By the log were two dogs sitting in the shallow water, one with his paw just touching the underside of the log which was floating, when what I would call the equivalent of a "mall cop" came by scolding the couple for playing in the water and for "hurting the dogs paw" by hitting the log. The dog was FINE. Not hurt at all.

Part 2

Than the dream switched to a group of teenagers playing lawyer and jury inside a closed boardroom.
The situation at hand was a guilty party. There was not much story line to why this party was guilty, only that he/she was.
The outcome was clearly obvious. 9-1 in favor of conviction, yet secretly those 9 were all hoping it was not so. The evidence was clear. UNTIL.. the one lawyer/juror ( they played both in my dream) piped up with a newspaper article from 20 years ago that CLEARED someones name for the exact offence. It was special circumstances. Until that point the Judge had no reason NOT to stand by the rules of the law until it was proven that at one point, someone gave a good enough account as to a reason why guilt should not be found. And because this article was brought to light, the guilty party was given mercy. And the 9....and the 1...smiled.
Also during this part of the dream it was found that also 20 years ago a female judge was appointed who was ALL ABOUT THE LAW.

Part 3

Now it is still in the fifties in a school hallway. The judge who had been appointed 20 years back who was all about the law was walking through these halls scolding and scoffing at any student who as much as made a scuff mark on the clean floor.
She also happened to be my teacher. GREEEEAT.
It was right before class started. Students were rollerskating (thats how they got around in my dream...cool!!! ) and trying to madly gather papers and pens before the bell when the halls went pitch black. Everyone ran into class as fast as they could knowing pitch black meant " WE'RE LATE ". So everyone ran into their desks, and I squeaked in as the last person running to the back where my desk was. " Can I borrow a piece of paper ?" I whispered frantically to my friend in front of me. She handed me a large piece out of a colouring book which is what SHE was using for paper. I also had some kind of writing utensil...but its foggy what it was.

"TANYA!! " the judge teacher piped up walking to the back where my desk was "GULP".

" TANYA!! You can not borrow a friends paper to write on!" yelled my teacher at me. She had large curly black hair and rimmed scary black glasses with a black skirt. And she was very intimidating. I mean like...TALL large.

Without hesitation ...and here is where my dream ends, I piped up with some sarcasm but also conviction, " WHY NOT?! JESUS SHED HIS BLOOD SO I COULD USE HIS!??".
And in that moment the Judge teacher not only had no come back or argument for me, but as I looked closer "SHE" was a "HE"!! And he was laughing so hard that he had to sit down because he couldn't believe how totally true and "witty" my statement was. And frankly either could I!
So what had been my scary teacher turned out to be a substitute :)

And that is when I woke up. The End.

Weird eh?

                                               


                                




1 comment:

  1. Poor girlie...it must be so crazy coming off a long stretch of serious pain drugs. Hang in there, honey,... and I know you will. You are amazing in the way you battle your way through these mind games. Keep looking to Jesus. He loves you so. Call me any time. I love you to pieces. xox mom

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