Let the drummer kick

Please excuse the intrusion  of the pop up player in the middle of the page. I don't know how to get it to the bottom. I like the music though. These are some artists I listen too..and I shall add to it, because it it FUN! Sometimes music is the only thing that makes sense to me... and I love that it has its very own language, and interpretation.
I love that it can bring healing, hope, laughter, tears, closure, openings, unity. I love that it can unlock doors and unravel madness in our minds.
I love that it can make us get up and DANCE!
I love that it is the very rhythm in us, just like our heartbeat.
                                                                                      Let the drummer kick.

Listen to Feist

group guitar lessons

 just started teaching group guitar lessons . It is SO FUN. I remember when I first picked up a guitar at the Schuetzes house years ago with Doug and Troy and whoever else happened to be wandering through the house at the time. During home group and otherwise, just playing and learning by trying to follow along. And then a progressed to playing with my dear friend Julie during a year of Bible College. Yes you heard me right. Bible College. Thank you Mom and Dad. That was a great year solidifying a lifelong friendship with my friend, and roomy who had never and HAS never lived in the same town with me. The gift of this was worth living at the top of a mountain and writing papers on things I probably will never use in real life. My real life that is. But none the less.. I am thankful. People, are awesome. And there I not only met some great people, but I learnt MORE GUITAR!
I also got tomatoes thrown at me in Slovakia in the middle of a market for playing guitar. Just like FOZZY BEAR! I loved it. Truly. I honestly did...like getting tomatoes thrown at me. I thought that only happened in cartoons! nope.

So anyways! I love my guitar students, and piano. And I am finding that teaching and learning in a group setting, at least with guitar is not only FUN but beneficial for catching on faster and with less intimidation.
Thank you my ginny pig group guitar lesson students. You make me smile! And you INSPIRE me.

A spoonful of sugar

There are some out there who believe that when we speak what is on our minds, people really don't care. And I think that could very well be true sometimes. Not everyone can care about everything. But I am pretty sure that each of us, if we are doing our job as humans can be a caring friend to at least one person around us at some point in our day, or life.

Taking time to really hear someone not only takes care, but time. And time is something that very few of us have. But just like I tell my students, its not how MANY notes you play. Its HOW you play them. One note can recreate through sound any number of emotions. The key is to feel...and than to listen. And sometimes I think the key is to listen..and than feel and than do... or play...or whatever. I haven't quite figured out which comes first. 

My experience is I generally remain very inarticulate and silent even though there is much to say until one or both of those things are working together first. Feeling, Listening. Visa Versa. This is my honest connection with God, myself and the people around me. My friends who are close to me know I have a great ability to talk ALOT and than I also have a great ability to fall off the planet for weeks at a time. This is not because I don't want to talk to anyone. Its because I am feeling..and listening. And working my way out to a place where I can be free without fear, to speak whatever is happening.

 And I have found that I have been locked inside many walls for long periods of time  just trying to find one word to speak that is true not masked in fear. People are meant for that I think. To be able to be heard trusting they are cared for, listened to without judgement. This is hard for us. It is.

Lately I have found myself faced with all kinda of different pain. Other peoples. My own . Really complicated pain. The kind of pain in people that has no quick cure, and stems from all types of life circumstance and background. 

We are here today. This is what we know.

Today we want to love.

Today we want to be loved.

Today I am thinking about this, and wondering how I can in a split second of time do this better.

Not with how MUCH time I have but with WHAT time I have, I can better listen to you my fellow friend in the world, family or aquaintance. Feel, listen and connect with you. Hear what you are saying and act... . To better connect the pieces that fit us together. I know very Mary Poppins. Spoon full of sugarish. But I have to say...

Just a spoon full of sugar  really does....make the medicine go down. xo my thoughts...in this moment in time... xo

The Facts of Life ...

Have you ever wondered why theme songs stick in our head so much?

The one that comes to my head immediately is " the facts of life" theme song.

to refresh??.... sing with me all born before 1980!

 " you take the good, you take the bad, you take it all and there you have the facts of life 

The facts of life.Theres a time you gotta go and show your growin now you know about the facts of life....the facts of life. When the world never seems...to be livin up to dreams..." 

you get the idea...

Well I am thinking about themes this week. I have been avoiding writing anything about this week because quite frankly I just can't find the words yet... but I thought I would begin to attempt to fumble through my feelings and download some of what has been on my mind .I told you before....All aboard. This Blog will make you laugh I hope at times...but not today. This week...has been about something more than the facts of life..but rather the reality, of death. I am sorry.. I gotta get it out. The reason I started a blog. Just so I could talk without interruption..read on. If you care to travel with me..

This week I have been faced with Some different kinds of death. All forcing me to think about what it all means. Death is not a new concept for me, or probably you either. However when it faces us in our close circle of friends, or people we are in contact with every day it has a new effect. This time around the effect for me, has been about "bearing one anothers burdens"

I am going to blog this in parts because I can't possibly keep my own attention let alone yours for long enough to get all I am feeling out in one entry. 

The reality this week..

Last Saturday a loved coworker of mine and loved friend of my friends commit suicide. She was 26 years old. With a five year old son she LOVED and family she LOVED and pain, that became to great for her to hold anymore..I get this kind of pain. So my heart....for different reasons than most. grieves. For her. For her son and sons father. For her family. And for her friends. A lot of which, may never understand why.... 

God knows. God loves. God bears our burdens.

Someone else I work with lost a Grandpa the same weekend. He was ninety. Lived a long life. We grieve..and face a different kind of understanding with this kind of death. This one is easier to grasp. At least for me..

Someone else I worked with lost a friend to brain cancer this week. He was 32. I am sorry for your loss my friend. Love. And peace.

And a customer who I love and serve everyday, cried while she told me today she lost her Mother on Friday. My heart ... is full.

                              And all I have been thinking of all week is these two simple but profound words.

                                                                                       Jesus Wept.

                                                                                               xo

                                                                                        

All Aboard..

Hello friends! Well I decided today is as good a day as any to unleash my inner ocean. I will just say this from the get go. These are my thoughts. Surprise right? No really. These are my thoughts. 

I have been feeling the death of the artists block for months now. Recently I have been unleashed though by the graceful hand of mercy to frolick free with my words on my NEW COMPUTER! Not that a pen and paper wont do anymore. But I am a much faster typer and it saves me writers cramp. And somehow, knowing I can place my thoughts in the faithful hands of Google makes me feel empowered, not to mention you reader..even if YOU the reader remains in fact only me! Yes . I do re-read my own blog:)

I warn you, if you travel these seas with me you may feel the need to jump ship at some point. And I am sure if you ask me I will be more than willing to jump with you. 

My point?

The purpose of me creating this blog is simply so I can just BE. 

BE a friend to myself

BE a friend to you

BE lieve in things I may not find until I get them out...

There is an ocean inside of me....

                                                        welcome. xo